An Update of Acting, Comedy, NLP, Nature, Math Interests

I liked the days before all the massive spam bulk forwarding email freak fests...When an email was as rare as a letter from a friend or a postcard from a traveler...sigh.

In any case, I realized I'm very much like a kid. When I was a lot younger I never really dreamt of being a Superman or a super hero or a fireman or things that kids typically dream of an envision themselves as. So I realized in my young adulthood I've still acted as a dreamer but dreaming and pretending to be as epic as Paul Newman or as talented as Collin Farrel, Brad Pitt, or Tom Cruise or Gabriel Byrne or maybe as wise as Emerson or as clever as Einstein or as peaceful as the Dalai Lama. More recently have dreamt "play-pretending" of being as talented as the actors or comedians as witty as Jim Carrey or as fearless Robin Williams. But it's still the same as dreaming of being a superhero at age 4.

Being a constant lifelong learner, I always have to have something to study and with which to connect my mind. As of late (the past few months and years), I've been studying Neurolinguistic Programming (useful for communications, for general conversations with people, to giving performances such as comedy on stage, NLP is essential), some Jungian Psychology (for creativity and peace in aiming to understand the complex areas of life), rudimentary math (for clarity), as well as audition and standup comedy books to keep me aligned and focused on career.

"All that time, under the gorgeousness was this major actor waiting to get out....He was getting on, and, an actor has a choice about how much of himself he's going to reveal" (p.28).
This one made a LOT of sense. Because after all...some times actors play roles, characters VASTLY different from their core personality (take Michael Richards for example, a very philosophical personality in person, but plays a quite a contrary character). In many ways I feel I do that as well. It's difficult to distinguish what parts of me are character versus just "me" at times. Even when trying to recreationally entertain I approach it with a seriousness, so it can even be difficult for me to make a distinguishing characteristic!

I just know I've been type-casted a lot as the troubled person who doesnt' get a job and calls upon friends family or random "helpers" for their sound advice. I've been typecasted as that role (and as the "student") for many many many many many many years. I think it would be a refreshing change for me to play the advice-giver or the teacher for once. To do that I'll need to treat my exercise as medication. I live like 400m away from these amazing trails! I've got to get out on those atleast 2-3 times a week and surf like 1-2 times a week minimum. I paddled out at Point Dume at 7am last week and hit up the Santa Monica Trails a week ago too. Nature is that life source that refuels you, clarifies you, it's so easy just to paddle out in the ocean or walk on a trail but the effects of it are like getting a college degree or doing complex drug compatibility alignment medical healing or lifecoaching. Complexi in the simple; simplicty from the complex. Nature is both complex and highly mathematically intelligent and extremely simple in some lights.

Anyways, funny you mentioned your friend Jeremy who works for Disneyland. The jeremy I mentioned works for Katsuya which is apparently some really hip happening celebrity restaurant thing, I heard someone else say that Hollywood was like the "adult Disneyland", so in a way maybe the Jeremy I know works for Disneyland too haha!

Also that's funny you mentioned a friend who believes in all those "million dollars in your mailbox" internet scams. While I'm not guillible for those, I have had a HUGE number of times of getting duped and scammed by con artists --- from some guy saying he'll get me a job at a chevy dealership so I lend him $60 and give him a lift to some place only to find out they've never heard of him...to cab drivers double charging me...to getting sold generic speakers with the price jacked up...haha! I guess all hard-earned (literally) lessons. All of my 'spam bulk" emails are from casting companies and lifecoaching certification comapnies...which while they're still asking you to sign up for membership stuff atleast Hey it's more aligned with things I'm interested in in life!

I have no interest in fishing, but that's soooo cool and I sincerely admire and almost envy that ability you have to wake up and "go to work "and that "work that you go to" is what you love to do (the fishing thing). Recently it's been difficult to pinpoint what I love, but NLP, comedy, and Nature (surfing, hiking etc) are definitely all huge interests. If I could wake up and do NLP (and there's a lot of opportunity for NLP in comedy on a HUGE scale), I'd feel pretty happy or teaching. I guess any of those things would be validating because it'd be a meaningful (like with the purpose of teaching someone math or helping someone with a problem or helping someone laugh and ease their troubles) act.

As for Health, I'm much more interested in swimming than biking, the run is just always accessible. I have this kind of yoga like mini circuit with free weights and own body weight I can do in most any place which has accessibility as well.

The main reason why I contacted you when I was freaking out was because I was strongly considering going overseas to get work (Europe or Oceania). That seemed like a big endeavor so I felt I should tell someone I guess.

I think the biggest thing going on in my life these days is maybe for once I DO know what's best for me, and I'm encountering these people who smoke or who eat unhealthily or who have this maladaptive habits that I know (because I've experienced the bad habits personally) are weighing down their life. I feel like if I don't point out solutions to them, I'm doomed to adopt those patterns myself, to drift into the poor patterns if I just overlook the problems people have. But then again you truly cannot change anyone who doesn't want to change and I guess focusing on myself, on the Nature Hikes I need and fuck people. I came back from a Nature hike and these people having a pool party offered me a beer and then this guy comes over and says "his women are trying" implying that I should be making an effort to talk to the women at the party, but they're all married and then they present the vibe of "don't make them uncomfortable" and it's all just a gigantic scam. People are scam. Truly. A huge underlying theme I've noticed in LA is that it's all about being distracted or confused. I thought for awhile that was the agenda of LA to distract and/or confuse you. But it's not; people are just simply distracted and confused here!! haha!! The trick is that if I connected with Nature -- Surfing-Ocean, Hiking-Wilderness trails -- being confused or distracted in the throng of people confusion is just something laughable because there's always that true unwavering, authentic raw intelligence of Nature always there. I'm only lost when I don't connect with that.

And it DOES change you. After I came back from a two and a half hour hike, I was disgusted by bars (well, I've been disgusted by bars by strangely drawn back to them for the past 4-5 years now that I think about it) and just felt so clear in myself and saw how sloppily people had led their lives, marrying at odd ages, having kids, getting sucked into relationships because of obligations or illusions of limiting beliefs etc...Nature, Ocean, and Wilderness gives me the clarity to have peace to rise above that and ultimately make better decisions in my own life.

Math enables me to take that bit of Nature with me wherever I go when I can't connect with it. The most appealing bit of Nature, most certainly is the mathematical precision and intelligence inherent in it. So doing math problems, the universality of that universal langauge suffices to connect with that Universal source of Nature.

NLP is for connecting and interacting with people and doing performance. If I never interacted with people, or never had to perform, I wouldn't need NLP, but people exist, therefore I must study and use NLP.

Auditions, Comedy books, and dissolving limiting beliefs keep me going, prevent me from getting stuck; those resources maintain momentum and prevent blockages of doubt from arising. Blockages of doubt and uncertainty or insecurity will ALWAYS appear at any level of success, so it's important ot have a method of dealing with those and dissolving limiting beliefs does that.