The Machinist Notes

Machinist
INteresting b/c He has to seperate himself from all "potential relationships" (the hooker gf, the "quasi-friends at the plant, etc" so he can do himself justice and turn himself in. His compulsion for honesty is was intuitively causes him to sever all those relationships subconsciously. The severings (chopping off arms, throwing dishes at the gf) were harsh and uncooth, but those relationsihps would hinder him in his commitment to do justice.

And that's so interesting b/c in life he was a lawyer, the early references to various labor acts and rights in the factory allude to that. So he's inherently living a contradictaion of agenda. If he tried to protect the guilty (or innocent) in life, then when he becoms the guildy after the hit and run, half of his brain has been trained to conceal his guilt and protect himself but then the moralistic self emerges after years and his commitment to personal justice seeps tshrough as he finally admits what he did and in a way "does himself justice". Very GREAT allusions. At the end he was wearing a "justice brothers" t-shirt. The movie was about finding a compromise between the legal protect guilty or innocent and the emotional moralistic "what is right" doing good from a belief point of view. In the end he got to know "both justice brothers" -- both complementary components of his psyche, moralistic honesty and judicial prudence. He suppressed the moralistic honesty part and it just seeped through in ugly ways.

Now that is siimilar to me in junior year. I severed ties with people and that was SOME part of me seeping through. I had to seperate myself from those people as a commitment to them would inhitibt whatever was seeping through from getting recognized. The question is "just what is that"? Couldn've been anger, dislike disgust, mostly it was knowing tons oabotu people emotionally and wanting to share it? to teach? not sure. but the schism that occured was similar int voialteit so that's ggreat to know whatever needed to get out has! now i'm just mregingoete .

So most of hte movie was literally hallucinations. The french woman, ivan, all of that was hallucinations. Ivan representethe moaralistic "doing good" side of him maybe.

Can't help but think that breck is connectd to my version of this. By me recognizing a wild part of me in how that guy operated I guess. thought that he could be me. just a fragment of my imaginations but i've talked with him and seen him a few times in club and stuff. so that's not truee. boutoi uroeijfodsjfsf slkjsjwild expressive part merging with artiaotn contemplateilivd.



I realized It's athletic chicks I'm interested in not porn. breathing, air, exercising, etc in sex!! not smut, heavy gross nasties.s light energy, exercising freshenss in women in sex!! yay.